first entry of JULY

was being lazy to update my blog~ everything to me is ..... stagnant
stagnant feeling ~
stagnant emotion ~
stagnant life ~
stagnant relationship ~
stagnant day ~
of course it leads to a stagnant blog ~

was being annoyed to write down my feeling~ everything to me is ..... ironic
ironic thoughts ~
ironic mind ~
ironic action ~
ironic me ~
ironic decision ~
of course it present a ironic blog ~

FOR you ... the girl in my heart ...
you are so near yet so far away~

you have never fail to appear in the center of my world~ my heart ... you are so near
you are just a button away, just a few sms away ~ you make my day.. you are so near
we all breath the same air, look at the same sun ~you and me are related .. you are so near
sometimes you just less than 5m away from me ~ we are actually that close.. you are so near
HOWEVER
I have always fail to appear in the center of your world~ your heart ... you are so far away
even though we just 5m away, there seem to be an invisible wall ... you are so far away ...

I still a bit confuse .. I still don't know what to do ...
are we near or far ?.... I still don't know ...
one thing is for sure ..
you are the nearest when I think about you ..
you are the furthest when there stood a invisible wall between us ...